Doubts

So then you wonder if this is the “healing crisis” you’ve heard about—where during the healing process, things get worse before they get better because you’re getting at core beliefs. Healing or not, it’s definitely a crisis. You’ve got bills to pay and work to do and a life to live and what if this whole line of reasoning is bullshit? And then you struggle to nip that line of reasoning in the bud. But damn, it’s not fair how easy it is to slip into a terror spiral, but how hard it is to claw your way to a positive thought. Why is that anyway? And while you’re on the subject, why are doughnuts really bad for you, but twigs and leaves are great?

“Why can’t things be easy?” you ask. Where’s your found winning lottery ticket? Where is your miracle? How long do you have to work at being happy before you’re actually happy? How long do you have to pay for old mistakes? Why can’t you watch The Secret or read Think and Grow Rich and then automatically get it and never have to struggle again? Why couldn’t you remember what you knew before you were born? Why are you so far from where you want to be? How long are you going to have to imagine where you want to be instead of looking around at what is?

If that sounds even remotely familiar, I have an answer for you. It may not be what you want to hear, you may wish you knew me in person so you could drive to Denver and smack me. That being the case, I’ll work up to it by saying that all of those questions are my questions. So if they’re familiar to you, know that we are soul mates. The answer is a poem dedicated to me. So here it is:

Stop struggling. Stop clawing. Stop working. Let go. Get out of your own way, stop making things more complicated than they are (which is not at all). Do what comes into your mind to do, when it comes into your mind. Trust that the worst possible thing that could happen to you will always be the best possible thing that could happen to you. Life is as easy or as hard as you think it is. The Universe always says yes to what you think and ask.

Stop looking for outside of yourself to find happiness. That means stop waiting for people and things and money and situations. Let them go. Turn “what is” into the best day of your life. Turn your focus inside. Pretend for a moment that you don’t want any more money or things or people or particular situations. Got it? Can you see it? Now what can you do to be happy? Is it going to school or going to Paris or doing yoga or getting a kitten or quitting your job or singing or saying a prayer? What do you want? When you’re clear on that, do what you can (that’s important) and believe the resources to do the rest will come to you. Know they are coming. Be excited about the delivery. (Try not to track the package.)

Here’s how you let go:

• “I always get what I want, it’s like magic.”
• “I just think about things that will make me happy and they appear.”
• “I never know how something is going to come into my life, but finding out about the trip is part of the fun.”
• “The entire Universe realigns itself to bring me what I want.”
• “I don’t ever have to feel bad.”
• “Today is the best day of my life.”
• “Thinking happy and positive thoughts is really easy for me.”
• “I know I will always be taken care of.”
• “My life is more fun now that I don’t have to control everything that happens in it.”
• “It’s exciting when challenging things happen to me—they show me how to dig out resistance.”
• “I can’t wait to see what’s going to happen next!”

This post is cross-posted from the Uncover Your Bliss blog.